The inner war of Mommy or Molly.

On a daily basis, I thank genetics for whatever gave me my maternal instinct. Why, you ask? Because without it, I have a personality that screams “will abandon her children to run away and find herself for the next 20yrs”. And nobody likes that kind of bitch.

I’m well aware that some people will pass judgment on me for saying this, but I don’t think motherhood is all rainbow-pooping unicorns and lollipops filled with sunshine. In fact, if I hadn’t ended up with my first little fluke child (if you’re reading this years from now, love you sweetie!) then I probably wouldn’t have children at all.

I’m twenty six years old and I’ve experienced at least twenty six life crises. The only constant career goal I’ve had is to write a book, which I have yet to do. When people ask if I want more kids, I laugh in their stupid faces. I like cheap beer, late nights, loud music and I’m an overall immature twat. But (I think) I’m also a damn good mother (most of the time).

I’ve been fighting to find the balance between perma-twenty-something-er who likes to party and married mother of two. Sometimes it feels like walking a tightrope over a lava pit filled with flaming crocodiles, but more often the two sides live in a truce-pledged harmony. There are pinky swears and compromises involved, but I’ll always make time to let my freak flag fly.

Motherhood takes all types, and in the end we’re all just trying to survive and raise some humans who don’t turn out to be complete shitheads. AM’I’RIGHT?

This entry was posted in Motherhood, Self-Criticism and tagged , , , . Bookmark the permalink.

4 Responses to The inner war of Mommy or Molly.

  1. meghan says:

    I just love this so much.

  2. xnerdgirlx says:

    So nice to know I’m not alone on this! I’m often annoyed for being defined as a mother, I feel I’ve lost most of my identity since becoming a parent. I’m still a person! I want to scream at people who only ever want to talk about nappies or nursery. What happened to real conversations?! Similarly though I’m blessed with a good maternal instinct and I recognise what an awesome kid I have which makes up for it 🙂

  3. adora says:

    Hey. I don’t know how I came across this blog but I really really really (etc) like it. I’m hooked for life or until you stop posting. I’m also 26. I’m also married. In also (recently) a mama. My name is adora. Whaaaaat.

Leave a Reply

Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in: Logo

You are commenting using your account. Log Out / Change )

Twitter picture

You are commenting using your Twitter account. Log Out / Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out / Change )

Google+ photo

You are commenting using your Google+ account. Log Out / Change )

Connecting to %s